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I'm sitting on the couch at my parents' house in Ottawa. This city is such a dump. Nothing's changed since I left- Cat still has absolutely no consideration for other peoples' ability or desire to commute and cares only about whatever boy she thinks she's in love with this month, Becky is never without Ross on any occasion lest she be accused of something along the lines of relationship-treason, groups of kids still make up the homeless population, the Rideau Centre still scares the shit out of me with all its nameless faceless people, and there's always a group of baked highschool douches on any given bus. I miss Vancouver so much. Despite the good times I have had and how happy I was to see Cat and Becky again despite all that highschool crap, I never want to come back here again. I've been in town five days and all I can think about is leaving. I don't know how I made it three years or how I'll manage two months this summer. I slipped on the driveway coming home from a fun day of Cat telling me to hurry up and meet her and Becky then being two hours late and asking if I had told Becky to come yet then having me bus to St. Laurent to sit around and do nothing with her, Boo and, of course, Ross. He was my friend in highschool but he's turned into some lazy fucked up kid who used to and might still beat up his girlfriend. I don't want this in my life. I hate this. I don't want to always be worrying about people or going out of my way to spend a day with them. I love my friends but I wish I could just leave and be gone rather than staying in touch and knowing every terrible detail of their monotonous, unchanging lives. I am fed up and want to leave, never to return. I am bored out of my mind of having to deal with the same dumb problems that existed in highschool. My elbow hurts from my fall, I'm pissed off, tired out, fucked up, and I want to go home to BC right fagging now.