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#35

I wish I could cry again now
like I did
last night.
Someone
once told me
"It's okay.
It's just
a chemical release."
but I ignored him
then;
he also believes
that the universe
will deliver
anything I ask for
and that the future
is in the cards
and he knew I was coming
into his life
because
I am the
Queen of Swords.
But after I uncovered my face
and the
tears
dried
I wondered if he might be right
and wondered
what I wanted from the universe.

#34

If there exists a higher power
please
let my pen move across the paper
and the ink spread along the page
so
that I can finally have some relief.

#33

I don't write
to a mass audience
to the many
to the people who will
decode
the way they so choose
or to those
who will try to relate.
I write
because maybe
no one will love me in my lifetime
and I'd like to extend
the option
to future souls.

#32

there sometimes exist
lonely nights
when all I can do
is sit and write
and hope that
I don't think

#31

you do it to yourself
you don't need to live like this
you don't need to live like this you tell me
stop
think
you're smart enough to get out of this
put on new shoes
find an office
with a nice break room
find a nice place to live
open yourself to people
don't be afraid
fall in love
live happily
but you won't will you
you're stubborn
it's not a compliment

#30

I wasn't this scared the first time
but now I've seen how life can be
in many different states
and I was ready to settle
before I took the leap
and realized
that I don't believe I can fly anymore
and I might not glide somewhere safe
like I'd done before
but instead fall
and crash
and die
as my bones grind together
and splinter.